yes...i did...how can you actually burn popcorn...something so facile...so simple...so easy...and now i peruse through my tub and find not even half edible...
its just all about my valentine's day blah...
I've always been very vocal about the commercialism of this day and even after all these years having someone to celebrate it year after year...i have expressed to many time and time again that it is nothing but a day where our vendors hike up their prices to make money off of people...
i do believe that...but i will also be such a hypocrite if i do not declare that i also look forward to this time of the year...
it's all about the proof, the hope, the glimpse, the tinge, the sign, the promise, the possibilities...
the day that love is proven...whether obligated or not.
for one day in a year...we are reminded that we are as one...that we are a couple, that we are tied together and that we care for each other. having been with joe for almost 4yrs now, i really do not need much proof of our love for each other but it is nice every now and then to be reminded of so. do not get me wrong, it has not been perfect. sometimes, especially in long term relationships...you tend to take each other for granted. we forget every now and then...as we are not perfect, but this day of the year always brings hope. i only imagine this day to be like my mom and dad...together for more than 30yrs, routine and simple each day but never to forget to do something on valentine's day.
and it is the same for new couples as well. i was asked by a friend if its ok to ask her boyfriend of one month what are the plans for valentines day. i say no, i say wait...let it come. i know it will kill you inside but the reward is in the surprise. if he does something so romantic and so unexpected then you will know, as a new couple, that he is worth keeping. if plans come forgotten then you will also know that a decision needs to be made. if this day means more than just a day then it is time to think of your next move, your next choice. it is elating to be reminded that here we are...that yes we care for each other. although it is sometimes unnerving to reveal you feelings to someone you barely have been with but again it is all about the proof, the hope, the glimpse, the tinge, the sign, the promise, the possibility of love and care in store for each other. and we will always have this year etched in our memories...as a day of firsts. might be your first valentine's day or the first rose or the first i love you or the first kiss.
for those that are single this year...no worries...its but any other day of the year. cherish the love of family and love of friends. time to move on...again this day brings forth hope...that next year shall be better than today.
much like my popcorn experience...i would have assumed 3mins is the standard, even with a low or high heat microwave. but it has brought me such an unfortunate surprise to see that the standard is wrong...i needed to be proven wrong. we all need to either be proven wrong or right. this day is anything but ordinary to not just most but to everyone. and whether people admit or not, they do think of what this day means to them, even if just in their subconscious.
joe said dinner and a movie, he's already made his reservations. typical, simple, expected. but having taken the role of planner in 90% of our moments...i take this as a positive sign. the effort is appreciated...believe me. the cynical me is taking a back seat...i have embraced today. i have been proven wrong again. and when time comes that i am alone this day of the year for some murderous reason then the commercialism theory shall resurface once again.
thanks joe...you know i love you...
quod erat demonstratum...
