Here we go...

Joe just had his pinning yesterday...done with school and on to the RN boards...he had his party and i had fun...i don't remember having been that "unSOBER" in a long time...in fact i almost made it a year without passing out with traces of dinner all over me...hahahhahaha
we're doing a little bit better...at least i think...we're working it out and taking it one day at a time...i think that's the way to go...he's a little bit better at this relationship thing and i guess i am a little bit better at letting go of the past...what happened hasn't come up and i haven't regurgitated any sarcastic blurts about it yet...i'm trying, believe me...its never easy to change but it is a must...i had a little talk with a friend and he did open my eyes a little bit on what might be my faults and failures...and i am working on those as well...but it is slightly easing to know that he does want it to work out...i love him...more than he thinks/knows...
work has been back to normal...at least lesser interruptions as our party has ended...good...i need to get back to my paperwork and clean up before the new year begins...ugh...i'm working on sunday...just so i can have some peace and quiet...thank god...
it's almost Christmas...i'm not really that excited...it's still different...feels strange to celebrate away from home even though i've done it for 5yrs now...oh well...what's a girl to do...but i may be able to go home next year...and very much looking forward to it...i'm draggin joe's behind...i will make sure he goes...
what's in 2010...who knows really...i hope a better year...i don't think i can take another year of 09...please...i need to drive soon, need to go back to school, need to work on my weight which has been a steady change so far and proud of it-goodbye 10lbs, you ain't coming back...so here we go...the ride begins soon...

Mama...

It's my mom's birthday today...i miss her...i miss everything about her...even the things i disliked...i guess that's really the sign of unconditional love...i'll be able to go home soon and i can't wait to spend more time with her...time i wasted when i was back home...time i took for granted...time i wish i could take back but can't...love you mom...happy birthday...